Obsessive ideas

Finding time to write was interesting. Often, even when I did find time to physically write I wasn't even sure how I wanted the story to go at that particular time. Ali was a handful. She was just starting to walk and really, really loved dumping and emptying buckets of toys. I would take her for walks and try to think out plot and characters, develop scenes and setting but sometimes I just couldn't force it; or worse have difficulty thinking it through. There were also some days where I couldn't stop thinking about a scene. I would lie awake at night going over different scenarios, different versions, different behaviors and reactions of characters. There are nights and they are still rare, where my mind won't allow me to sleep until it is satisfied with the scene. The next day I would furiously write down my thoughts (during nap time) before they left forever. I know I'm lucky, I know there are many of aspiring writers who don't have nap time to write. Again, if it weren't for my kids, I'm not sure how much writing I would have done. Now that the writing bug has successfully bitten I sometimes feel as if I don't get enough time to write. My first manuscript is finished, but still needs polished. And I am currently writing a second book. I have a very energetic three year old and a mischievous 9 month old occupying my time. In whatever spare time I have I balance polishing, writing, researching (proper query techniques and facts for book two) and of course time with my wonderful and ever patient husband who still deserves time from the person he married. I'm not complaining, I love what I've chosen to do. And I'll get it all done too, it's just a matter of how long it will take.